I am alone tonight, im my uncle's house by myself. I drank a little but I'm not drunk. I couldn't sleep because of some mental and physical reasons. For me, I keep telling mah friends just to relax and enjoy themselves, and I do, too. Nevertheless, I still have a problem. Sometimes I feel so lonely like this moment, just sitting by myself and feeling my fingers to fingers on my keyboard...
I designed this picture in a very extremely unconscious state, I didn't feel anything except my thought about what I have done in my life. When I finish, I were just surprised by what I had just recently done. Sometimes, art doesn't need a mind, it needs a feeling.
My life have been what I wrote in this design. It's not simple, not too complicated but always filled with family, friends and happiness, and that's it. Sometimes people treated me too bad for me to stand up but apart from what they think, I stood up and made them feel the feeling that people doesn't wanna have.
If you score a hat-trick, then I'm gonna have a double hat-trick at the end of the match. That's my saying. I've been living my life for whatever I want, whoever I meet and wherever I've ever been and I like it. I don't care what the f* and why ppl keep talking shit about me. Sometimes you hate me just because you can't be like me. Sometimes you hate me just because i'm so different from you. Just go ahead and hate me, I don't care. But don't touch me or my family or your family will remember you every one single day of each year, still an old saying of me.
However, I just lack one thing, a girlfriend. The last kiss and warm of love that I had were one round year. I've been trying to grab some girls and put myself into a serious relationship but what I have got was nothing except short-loves. I don't mean one night stand but I've never found the girl whom meets what I want from. I want to have a girlfriend.
I don't care what people think about me when reading this beacause this is a real part of me. But I'm always a friendly, funny and crazy person whom you loved and like to talk with. Sometimes I just wrote down what I thought and what I don't give the shit to stupid things that doesn't fix with mah life because I just don't like it.
Keep trying and fighting for what I want. I believe one day I will have a girl who I deserve to have as a result of all my effort, my Mrs.Honie!
A Pause of My Life
Sometimes I though I had everything: family, life, love, career, knowledge ...
Sometimes I deserve to have what i am fighting for
Sometimes I dont even know what i am trying to get and fighting for
I used to have a girlfriend and I used to love her so much but my life is supposed to be without her because we were not born for each other
I soon realized that I could live my own life by myself and get what I want by myself
But sometimes I feel so lonely
The last kiss and warm that I could have from a girl was one round year before
Sometimes I need a girl ... a real girlfriend
Who can share with me everything
who knows what I really need and want
... the one, who just simply need to stay here and share with me not only all
of our happiness but also sadneess.